It really doesn’t matter
It truly never did
As long as you are with me
I know I will be fine
When I was in college I had to cut my hair. It wasn’t growing like it should and well the saloonist advised I cut it and start from scratch. I thought I would look cute to be honest but when she was done I looked at the mirror and didn’t feel so beautiful. I had low self esteem, coupled with being all alone in a new school, no friends and no family around. I truly felt sad one season. So I would venture to the piano room in college and would just sing and play to God and cry. I would tell him how I felt and how I felt alone and like I couldn’t do this or how I felt so not beautiful. Well...at some point, when I was done, I would pause and then say Father I have said my part, now please say yours. You see that’s what David would do in the Psalms; he would always allow God to talk. So I would pause and then I would start singing words I knew weren’t mine. I would sing “you are fearfully and wonderfully made”(Psalm 139:14)...”you are not alone I am with you”(Hebrews 13:5).” You can do all things because I am there to strengthen you”(Philippians 4:13)...and yes, “you are altogether beautiful there is no flaw in you”(Song of Solomon 4:7). Simple things like “I love you, I love you, I love you”...would lift that cloud and place this simple peace that truly God loves me. I would then leave that room so happy and content. And whenever those feelings tried to come again, I would say “I am altogether beautiful there is no flaw in me”...God is with me, and He loves me. I may not know how to do this but I can lean on his mercy and help and he will help me! It was those moments that got me through college and yes feeling like Queen Esther herself, with short hair , spots on face and big bright smile and all!
Today is May 1st, and you may be feeling like I don’t know how to go through the rest of the week. May be there is a big project on your shoulders that you don’t know how it will finish...could be believing for a loved one to know Jesus or a business to come alive, and yes trusting the Lord for your spouse to come your way or just simply praying that the good days you are experiencing never end. My encouragement for you today is simple “God loves you, and you are altogether beautiful there is no flaw in you” God’s love for you is the type that when you bring your 10% he brings his 90%. He knows your frame and he knows you. Remember he made you! He is not ashamed of your weakness but remember this, in your weakness He is strong( 2 Corinthians 12:9 )! So you don’t have to lean on your weakness...you can lean on his strength. You may not know how, but He does! You may not have all the funds, but He does! You may not be able to speak to your loved one about Jesus, but He can and can send people to em. You may not know how to bring clients to the business but He still whispers to people to check around the corner of that street. You may not know how to keep the good days, but He surely, truly without a doubt loves, loves, loves sending goodness and mercy to follow you every day. It may be tempting sometimes to try to do it on our own but which child ever does?? When you don’t feel like it, just run my Darling to this throne of grace and mercy that you might receive help in time of need and simply say “Father please help me with this today, I lean on your mercy (Hebrews 4:16). Thank you for loving me and taking your glory from this in Jesus' name”. Your father loves you, He is there with you and he will be there with you. Holding your hand through it all, carrying you on His shoulders and yes saying every single step of the way “you are altogether beautiful there is no flaw in you”!!
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It really doesn’t matter
It truly never did
As long as you are with me
I know I will be fine
You think I am beautiful
You said you will be there
So that is enough for me
I will step out,
Knowing you are holding my hand
Knowing you will protect and provide
Knowing you will defend and be so kind
You are praising me every single way
Simply because it is what you do
You are singing over me and I guess
The words are simple and still so deep
Full of love in your eyes
You say
“You are altogether beautiful there is no flaw in you”
So i rest and pause and say
“Wow, I AM altogether beautiful; there is no flaw in me”
With all my heart I will love you Father
With all my soul I will trust you
I will trust your voice above the waves
And let your peace lead
For you have been the one who has loved me till now
And you will love me till then
My lovesong to you, after hearing your love song to me